And you shall know the truth. And the truth will set you free

Finally! Exams are over, but somehow i feel like that there's something missing. Once the exams are over, there's no need to study. But then i have not much time left. I have to go to National Service soon. When i wake up in the morning, i never put the alarm clock anymore to wake me up to study. But i automatically woke up, the reason was to play computer. Because i feel lost. I cant go to church. I cant go to church camp. I dont understand why my mum cant understand her view does not mean its my view. She wants me to do things her way. Everything i do is to please her! There's no aim in life now. The only thing to look forward is to going to army! but do people look forward to it? Haiz. :(